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Originally Posted by hope2010
I did go to the supermarket! I drove there, once I am inside I am not afraid at all, but I do want to come home as soon as possible. But many times like today, I want to stay longer, just look around, walk and wishing I can go other places no just the supermarket. I am very hard on myself. Still working on that part of me too. Sighs.
So, that is the very good news, I also went busy cooking chicken stroganoff. Now I am here happy to see your message, we are not alone!
I think having a small goal each day is helping me.
The big problem will be, as you said so, drive to my therapist clinic. It is located half an hour from my house, I have to drive on the highway that is really difficult for me.
How are you feeling when you know the night before that you will Have To get out and drive? I got anxious, catastrophic thoughts. I hope you don't have them.
I will be around, hugs
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A thousand times YAY for going out! I was thinking about you today as I debated in my mind whether I should go out for a walk. I didn't. But I looked out the windows.
You guys are definitely not alone...agoraphobia can come in waves. It was very severe for me 20 years ago. Now I understand it as an anxiety that has grown to a point where it takes over logic. Kind of like you are on a tight rope and you have "whatever you do, don't look down!" repeating in your mind. You might even close your eyes. Then one day open them, look down, and the ground is just inches away after all.
Last weekend I had to go to a mall. At all times I avoid malls. I made my husband take me and I really wanted to just order the thing I needed online. Anyway...we went. I bought the thing. And then 2 days later when I tried it on, it was the wrong size. UUUUUUGGGHHHHHH. I actually considered not saying anything, and not doing anything about it. Then I looked online (where I normally shop) and thought about just buying a new one in the right size. My husband wound up taking me again...I literally said, "Bye (store), see you never again."
LOL. It sounds crazy. But this is the struggle. Right? Something fritzy in us that is powerful. But we are even more powerful.
Small goals. Small things to prove to ourselves that we can. It doesn't mean we always will. But it means that compassion and acceptance are the keys to getting outside...
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