Thank you for posting this.
This is remarkably insightful as well as beautiful. So much of what you write strikes a chord with me and it’s amazing to see what you’ve been able to reflect on and cultivate out of heartbreak.
I relate so much to what you write about wishing to someday connect to your old therapist from a better (and perhaps more equal?) place. It would be wonderful if she could help you get the closure you need to this chapter of your life. At the same time, a part of me hopes you can fully heal and thrive without her, and turn your back on all of this and walk on to a phase of your life that’s bright and full.
I’m rooting for you!!! Keep at it!