I am glad you did

I am devastated, just talked with my older son, we are all survivor of his father emotional abuse. We forgive him but not forget.

I have PTSD because of everything my ex-husband did to me.

One of the reasons I am so afraid is because of that trauma. I have agoraphobia because the world wasn't a safe place for me for many, many years.

I know we should only focus on the present. But at the moment, these feelings of the hanger against him, sadness and real pain for what he had done to us, depression because I never was able to win that battle against him, anxiety because I had been in therapy for years and years and the PTSD still there as a shadow that makes my life so difficult.

I am amazed, that with all that going on I still have hope for better days, I still find a way to laugh and most important I have my sons and my new husband with me.

I will try to drive to the gym on Friday. That is my next goal.
What is yours?

Hugs