Learning to notice degrees of closeness more would be a good thing for me!
But also when I consult inside - my inner self is actually over the moon with about being genuinely "liked" by a few people, indeed by as many people are possible.

If I listen internally, despite cravings for closeness I am more comfortable not dealing with all the sucking and whooshing of energies that means on a daily basis: dealing with that in two directions is too complex for my damaged self. The real interplay of two people's emotions is messier than novels, or even therapy books, say.