Beautiful weather today before a storm and major drop in temperature tomorrow. Slept about 5 hours even with a lot of meds. So nauseous. I have trouble eating as I don’t feel hungry, and when I do eat my stomach feels worse. On the plus side I may lose weight.

Texted T and he suggested usual anxiety management skills. Later he suggested benzodiazepines. They help but only in large amounts so not really sustainable. I guess I will just have to use my skills and tough it out.

Saw a close friend for coffee this afternoon. We haven’t caught up in ages. It was wonderful. I rarely see friends, and have so few. We’ve known each other 23 years.

Mentally I’m ok but I get very stressed very easily. Then I dissociate and stare, and lose time. I’m used to having bad PTSD from years ago but this is a more physical monster. The panic attacks are bad. Even though the Bipolar is stable I’m worried I’m going to lose it under all this pressure.