I cried all through my session yesterday. I have teared up numerous times before but this was all out sobbing and perhaps a little wailing. I just felt so defeated and a failure. I had diligently done my homework but felt such a failure at it and that I let myself down - that I had let her down. The tears just flowed and flowed and flowed.

Some good may have come to this however. My therapist has bumped up my sessions from monthly to weekly, with a mid-week check-in to her office. She suggested too I try to get in as soon as I can to my psychiatrist so as to discuss my medication. She might be right. I've had no changes since 2015 and I it is probably do some tweaking.