Got it. Totally normal and understandable to be nervous about a first appointment. Mine is on Tuesday too. I'll be thinking about you and sending you easeful vibes that it goes better than expected.
One thing I like to remind myself is that I am there for help. And they are there to help me. And that chances are, they've likely "heard it all." So I try my best to not exaggerate, but also not downplay or minimize whatever the struggle is.
It is particularly challenging sometimes with bipolar...because we can't predict which kind of mood we'll be in on appointment day.
Be honest, be open and be willing to be nervous about it.
The good news is first appointments only happen once.
Good luck!!!

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