R is a blank slate.

When we first started it did fuel my obsessive googling. Everything I found about him was online otherwise he wouldn't have told me. It was just because I wanted to know who he was. I still sometimes feel how can I love him if I don't know him? But I know therapy him. He has softened up a bit, and told me random stuff when I've gone on about it. We totally had this moment over Lord of the rings which was nice and game of thrones. I'm the poster child for daddy issues, so that really does come up a lot for me especially with the erotic stuff.

He does give me reassurance especially before exams which I need and I usually always email him right after I get results just to get a "well done, I knew you could do it".

He taught me that negative emotions weren't bad and that it was okay to show anger, to tell him when he gets it wrong and that I didn't have to worry about him.So I can feel safe showing him all that.