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lucidity11
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Member Since: Apr 2015
Location: new york
Posts: 286
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Default Apr 21, 2019 at 04:39 PM
 
I don't like this new look. I feel like I can't trust it. Why does it look like this? Too much change. I am trying to get on with my life. Someone I loved in my past died last month. I hadn't spoken to him in a while. I really loved him but the time wasn't right. Also I just learned that I am going to die at 68, Actually I have known for about a year. I am not sure why I was told. I used to think that it would be good to know so we could get our life in order but now it seems like we have stopped looking forward. Stopped building toward the future. I don't know if it is because of my age or because I know the age I will be when I die. I haven't wanted to say anything about this because I thought that would mean it would be true. But my friend who died was 72. I was told 50 years ago that he would die at 72. I am not certain I can do anything to change this. I hope I can. Maybe. Who knows maybe I won't mind when I am 68.
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