Thank you very much for your response!

Of course I know that I can't get a diagnosis here. And a diagnosis is really the last thing I want to get (to be honest, the only thing I really want is to be given a cup of hot chocolate and to be told I'm okay). I'm just trying to collect as many thoughts as possible.

Well, I tried some of the tests... a possible Bipolar II diagnosis? That doesn't look good for me...