It’s embarrassing that I felt that way in the first place. It’s just worse that he’s taken, making it unwanted. I don’t find anyone else attractive at the moment.

Oddly, I don’t think there are any single’s meetups around here and even if they were, aren’t they just for straight people? I go to other meetups all the time, mostly queer ones, and it doesn’t really help finding anyone, even friends outside the event.

It’s extremely rare that someone has a friend for me. I think that only happened once and it was years ago in a different city and something I couldn’t act on anyway.