mine have been all over the map, from 'severe personality disorder' to 'schizophrenia and bipolar' (no, really; 'mild schizopphrenia' with bipolar on top...true story). and now...

i saw the new prescriber today. she actually said "reading over your records, some of this...just doesn't make sense.' and im thinking...wow. she's an actual professional, and she's trying to help. and now...

she's adding a low/standard dose of Prozac, to help with -intense- anxiety that makes my mind go in loops. i'll stay on the abilify. the orthomolecular, of course...continues :-) .

thing is...if i didn't have my family behind me, this same clinic would probably be injecting me with loads of risperidone or haldol or whatever they give people on involuntary treatment. that only now occurred to me, honestly, and...

its more than a little bit scary, it really is. what if i actually do end up being able to go off psych drugs, one day...possibly -with a doctor- helping me do a taper?

crazy. just...crazy.