I'm sorry you are dealing with all of this. You posted this a few days ago. But having read some of your more recent posts, I have the impression your circumstances haven't improved a lot... sadly.

I struggle with anger along with anxiety & depression. Something ticks me off, my anxiety swells, I fly into a rage of self-hatred, & then I fall into depression. It's a vicious circle, one I've traversed the perimeter of so many times I can see it unfolding but am often powerless to stop.

I wish there were some creative solutions I could offer you. In my case I simply try to meet my challenges with lovingkindness & compassionate abiding. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't...