Fuzzy, you are clearly going through something right now. I wish I could help. I don't seem to be very helpful to anyone, but let me try here. Being blamed or harshly berated is no way to treat anyone. About anything. If someone actually did something wrong, then a simple admission, apology and an attempt to put it right should be all that is required. But people are complicated and complicit. There are some people who are so devoid of humanity they will never admit or see their own wrongdoing. Walk away from them. They mean you no good.

Anyone berating you for having feelings is pushing away their own guilt. No one wants to hear this, but I'll say it because it is what saved me: walk away.

If someone is physically abusing you, call your emergency services. Now. It doesn't matter if you are not bruised and bleeding, call them and ask for the help you need.

My "inner child" is dead. I was the walking dead for far too many years. Now I am all adult and I am okay with that. Being an adult lets me make my own decisions for my own well-being. Something to think about.