Hello FairyArtista: Thank you for sharing your story here on PC. I see this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central.

I'm sorry you have experienced such abuse, disappointment & disillusionment in your life. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support.

Here are links to 5 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that (hopefully) may be of some help or at least interest:

Child Abuse Survivors, Victims Need You to Talk About It

Recovering from Childhood Abuse: The Past Keeps Getting Clearer

Memory Isn't Important to Recover from Trauma

Childhood Trauma: Overcoming the Hurt of Invalidation

Abuse: Support Groups Resources

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