Hi there FL47.
I get what you're saying.I understand all your fears and the untangling of all the messiness inside.It's pretty daunting,isn't it?I had an artist inside too and was pretty amazed of some of the drawing that I took to therapy with me.The good thing though is all of those talents I had before are still with me after integration.I'm an aritst,a writer,a musician,and many other things that before only happened at specific times by specific alters.
How did therapy go?Did you take in the drawing?