(((Mickey))) you are a good person and you like to be honest and truthful. It's important that you establish stronger boundaries where you realize you really don't OWE others an explaination for everything you need to do for yourself. It's really ok if you are not sure about what you want to be, it can take time to slowly figure that out and come to realize what you are good at doing. You don't have to be your parent's caretaker either, or anyone's for that matter. You tend to leave yourself open too much and it's really ok to say no and settle into thinking about your own needs. You don't have to tell your parents everything or feel like you are lying when you need some privacy and don't want to tell them certain things you need and are doing for yourself. Reaching out for counseling is "healthy" and it's not anything to feel ashamed of or think that it's bad if you don't share that you are doing so. It's actually really good that you are taking the inititive to address your own needs. It's ok to be independent of your parents.