So after much thinking about things I have decided that I am DONE with dieting.

For over the last 4 months I have been eating whatever I wanted. Last week I had my metabolism tested and I am happy to report that my BMR is up to 1750. So I think clearly reducing my calorie intake reduces my BMR. This very well could be the reason for my struggle. Almost once per year I expertly reduce my metabolism via diet. I am suppressing my own metabolism via trying to take weight off... this leads to weight gain.

No matter what, I will not significantly reduce the amount of food I eat. I will simply work on building muscle and exercise. Working does make it difficult to exercise, but i purchased some items for the home and I have decided to just got to bed later.

I am trying to keep my calories around 1500 per day. But that is my goal.. eat 1500 cals per day and exercise and that is my goal.

I will NEVER look at the scale again. The scale is a serious problem.