I am kind of upset right now because I was really late to my session today, so it was obviously much shorter. Almost feels like it would have been better to have had no session at all. Everything feels all stirred up. Really depressed.

Somehow, we got on the topic of me possibly telling the therapist more traumas. Now I'm angry about this idea. Why should I tell her anything? She'll just write it all down in my chart and forget about it. What good does that do me?

She also started talking about how she thinks I know who this certain perpetrator is because it's clear C's mom must have known him. That made me feel really fearful and threatened. I don't know what it is she thinks but it's scaring me. And I don't know anything about anything, anyway. So I told her it doesn't matter. But she said sometimes it does matter. She said why she thinks this, then asked me to think about it over the weekend. Then we were done.

I want to steal my file and destroy it. And brainwash the therapist.