My meds at their max keep me from being suicidal. I still feel what's the point. Some of the time I am able to ignore this, other times like now I wish there was some from of relief. It's a heavy burden to bear. People cannot see the despair in my mind. Most people have no clue. Every ******* day it's an effort to put on the facade and carry on. Just sharing. People IRL, who do not suffer from a mental illness, have no clue what a day in our life is like. Just venting. Thank you members of PC for being there.