sorry that you are feeling this way. I can relate. I often feel very disconnected and lonely. it feels like I will never find a friend who is genuine and supportive. there are meet up groups in my city that I may take advantage of when I get low. I tell myself that this too shall pass and that I can get better. hopefully with this attitude, I can find someone to befriend me and help me pull through. all the best and I hope you can the light at the end of the tunnel.