The thing I feel most ashamed for is using the hospital for comfort when I was a teenager. I looooved the hospital because it was a place where I didn’t have to deal with my real life. I once had my grandmother pay $5000 just so I could go to my preferred hospital when I didn’t have insurance. How many bills I must have racked up going to the hospital so many times! And I was only 19, so I had no clue about medical bills. I feel so ashamed for it. Nowadays I only go IP if I’m truly unsafe. Especially because I have a son to care for. It’s not a vacation for me anymore.