Sending you
Betty_Banana. The term "depression" alone has so many meanings and layers. I've been depressed all my life...even before I knew how to say it...but I also just recently realized how deeply depressed I've been after going through a ton of medical tests, surgeries, psych diagnoses, stopping work, etc. It's kind of like a layer on top of the forever layer. And I didn't really realize it until I was sitting with my new psych yesterday.
Getting help sounds like a brave and kind action.
Wishing a parting of the clouds for you very soon!
FearLess47