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Originally Posted by Dnester
I get that with DID you are split at a certain age. A host is whoever fronts most etc. What about your orginal self and I am not referring to DID because I know you are fragmented and there is no orginal self. What about with OSDD? I only remember me. I remember going to school as me. Going home and being emotionally and mentally abused as me all after 8. I dont remember if I was happy, sad or whatever before 8. I dont have enough collective memories to come to any conclusion and my parents are of no help. Anyway so I dont remember any parts of me (alters)(anyone who felt drastically different than me until my 20s) and I am always conscious of her. So do people with OSDD still have an orginal self? Can you be BPD and still feel you have a separate self? One that feels different than you emtionally?
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I found my original self a few weeks ago. It's a personality like my others but I can have alot more control over the others. With my core personality, I can be co-conscious with my other alters. My original self went dormant for years as my protector alter took control for years. But with my original self I can hear the thoughts and feelings of my other alters. I can talk to and negotiate with them, have small conversations and form agreements. It has honestly changed my life , finding my core again.