CPSD has ruined a lot of my memory. It is just not there. I no longer remember a lot of facts from my education. I am, though, remembering some childhood events with a new perspective. I don't know if it is a fair tradeoff but even at my age I continue to process events from my past. Sometimes, I let my mind roam free and when a feeling comes up, I ask myself "why do I feel like that?" Sometimes, after some time, the answer reveals itself. It's not a speedy process (at least for me). Sometimes our animal minds work in mysterious ways. Gently prod it and see where it takes you.