Every day seems to be a constant battle and getting through the day is about all I do. I am saddened by the bitterness and loneliness of my life. Alone I break -- like that one song by KoRn. Alone I break. I break alone....
Maybe this isn't the world for me. Perhaps there is a better one.

I am just pooling out my own thoughts.
"There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be"
-- Asleep by The Smiths
That song is how I feel on this lonely cold night, where I am self hating, self pitying and alone.