Thank you soooo much for your feedback and insight! It all made so much sense to me. I’ve been stuck in this funk for so long and scared to reach out. I’ve never put it in that perspective before. I’ve never thought about triggers. You’re exactly right though. It is from a past relationship. I got the same feelings i did before and assumed. He is very patient with me and knows my past. He lets me have access to his phone, does everything he can to reassure me he has nothing to hide. But in The back of my mind I start thinking, what if he’s just really good at hiding things. In over a year we’ve lived together and not once have I caught him in a lie or doing anything harmful to jeopardize our relationship. As far as the trauma I’ve experienced, I couldn’t nail one thing down that could have led me to be diagnosed with BPD. But thank you again for your response. It’s truly given me a lot to think about and focus on! I hope you have a great too!
Autumn 🍂