Hello TheUrOther. I am so sorry that you have experienced abuse. It was not your fault and you did not deserve it. In your current life (as opposed to when you were a child) what abuses are you experiencing? What are the specific abusive actions which affect you when you leave your home? If you give us some specific details, perhaps we can offer some ideas to help? Or are you not asking for help? Would you prefer for us to just read your posts? Each member on PC wants and needs something different.

Peace to you.