May 25, 2019 at 05:02 AM
Body image and feeling like I am not worthy unless I look a certain way has brought mine back again. I have been bulimic free for 6 months but I gained so much weight. Of course I gained weight as before I was throwing up everything I ate. I am not sure what is worse having a flabby middle, love handles or throwing up. I feel proud of myself when I weight and look a certain way so I have started throwing up again.
Not telling T because I believe my extreme transference to him has caused it to come back. I feel he would love me back if I look a certain way.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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