You certainly aren't letting ANYONE down here, Thirty shades! Please don't be so hard on yourself! You've helped many people thanks to your kindness and thoughtfulness, including me! I completely agree with what all the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said better than I ever could! Just try to be a little bit kinder to yourself, ok? WE ALL CARE ABOUT YOU HERE! THAT'S A PROMISE! I PROMISE YOU ALL OF THAT BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! PLEASE REMEMBER ALL OF THAT AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! THAT'S A PROMISE! Please take GREAT care of yourself, ok? : throb: WE ALL CARE ABOUT YOU! THAT'S A PROMISE! WISH YOU GOOD LUCK! Let us know how things are going for you! We DO want to know how things are going for you! THAT'S A PROMISE! Sending many kind, safe, sweet and warm hugs to you, Thirty shades!