a feeling of deep emptiness— I don’t have this
It’s more this— , fear, lack of "belongingness"... never feeling as though I fit in anywhere, never really having any real sense of who I am.

I feel that when I am bored, depressed, or unchallenged. Ironically, I feel I fit in just fine here on PC and have spent more consistent time on here than anywhere! Also, I feel just fine when I am enjoying myself and being challenged in something I have interest in.

I was emotionally validated as long as those emotions were the same ones shared by my mother. If they were opposing then I was not allowed to have them.