I'm glad to read that someone is coming to help you at home, Miss Laura. I am optimistic that clearing some things up in your house will have some level of positive effect. Though my husband and I can barely afford it, we retained a housekeeper who comes twice per month to do the heavy cleaning work. That DOES make a positive difference for me, and of course my husband, too. I can understand your discomfort, but sometimes accepting help, though hard, is a significant step in helping oneself.