Hello again, Sinking, dear.

Just a couple of quick responses to your last 2 posts.

Firstly, you say you don't really want to quit with your current T, and I think that should tell you something. I do understand how totally demoralizing it is to have your hopes constantly demolished, although I don't know exactly how that has worked in your life. One way to get around that is to stop having hopes, and just take one step at a time. Stop and see how that turns out. Then when you're ready, take another step. But keep your goals realistic. For you. Honor your life for what it is, for what is has been.

Another thing to avoid is to start getting too far ahead of yourself. As in, what if this happens? What if that happens? The thing is, you have limited control. You have control only over yourself, and not over what other people do or what the world does. All you can do is try to figure out what you are reasonably comfortable revealing, or saying, and try that out on the other person. Then wait.

Please - be well, and stay safe. Life really is precious.