I'm sorry you are going through this. Divorce is a stressful, painful process. Even if the marriage was toxic, it is still a relationship. And you are grieving the death of a relationship. I agree with the above quote from Bob Marley. "You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice." That is so true. I, like many others have gone through this. Even when I didn't think I could, I did. And I know you can as well. So you keep your head up, girl. You got this!