Because of the amount of sexual abuse I went through over the 15 month ordeal I was in and the emotional abuse of being called so many degrading names I feel completely dirty and never feel that I will be loved by a guy. I know deep down that all of those sexual acts that I had to go through were forced onto me and not my choice, but it still happened. Will there ever be a guy that can look beyond all that or am I going to be alone or going to end up with guys that just abuse me for the rest of my life? I am 16 years old and my friends and peers are mostly all dating and some in relationships, but not me because I fear this so much that I am going to be hurt again.