I'm so sorry that you had to go through that. I would strongly encourage seeing a therapist if you are not already doing so - they can help you work through these feelings of fear. You will not be alone forever, there are beautiful, understanding people out there who will honour your feelings and take their time with you. Plus you're only 16! You have so much time to grow, heal, learn and meet lots of wonderful people. You are not and will not be alone. xx