Thanks for your reply. Unfortunately I have blocked Youtube from my computer for 6 months because i'm trying to finish my masters thesis. Which is probably a perfect ironic illustration of the problem I originally posted about. ha.


Success has always been more important to me than my own happiness. I guess it's because I figured I'll never be happy, so I might as well try to be successful.


This would work perfectly if I was single and had no friends. Unfortunately I have all these people who love me who care whether or not I am happy. So the jig is up. I'm being sarcastic just in case you didn't pick up on that.