Has anyone ever heard of a treatment center that basically re-raises you as though you were a baby?


When I was a infant of less than 1 year old, my mother left my in my crib to cry myself to sleep. She didn't come in and comfort me because she found me to be too demanding for her tastes.

I have lived my entire life with a crippling fear of abandonment. I am 38 and have never been able to overcome it, despite being able to overcome other aspects of my mental health issues.

What happens is - some event or situation reminds me of being abandoned and I start panicking that I will be. I need to be comforted immediately or I will cry harder and panic even more. I will do outrageous things to get comfort, now...not later. Immediately. If I don't, I feel like I am literally dying. I become suicidal. I think the world is a cruel empty place and that everyone hates me.


This feeling is the same as an infant would have if they were abandoned. I feel like this pattern is stuck, that my brain is missing a critical piece of itself.

I've tried a lot of different types of medication and therapy. I am looking for something unique that will target very specifically the thing i have the most trouble with.


I'm wondering if some crazy entrepreneur started an inpatient center somewhere that will like, have staff that comforts you when you're panicking as though you really are a baby. Like, what if I'd had a good mother instead of a neglectful mother? Is it necessarily too late to build those trust pathways as an adult?

It's not reasonable to ask an adult in my daily life to do this because I am not a baby. But the good thing about capitalism is that you can always find someone to PAY to do the things that would be unreasonable to ask another adult to do for free.

I need a do-over on the first year of my life, with a different mom.