it seems liek you've been through A LOT, @davidanswers! I AM DEEPLY SORRY TO HEAR THAT! PLEASE NEVER GIVE UP HOPE! I wouldn't say you need URGENT help since from what you wrote it seems like you're handling ALL of this pretty well, but I'd say that getting professional help CERTAINLY doesn't hurt. Unfortunately we can't "force" other people who have done us wrong to pay their debts. Unfortunately that doesn't always happen. You CAN wort through your experience though and gain a better awareness and understanding of what happened so please DO oncsider it if you can. I'm REALLY HAPPY that you're taking ALL of the necessary steps to take care of yourself! That's the way to go! Please be kind to yourself and allow yourself to make mistakes from time to time. It's not the end of the World when that happens. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @davidanswers, and ALL of your Loved Ones! PLEASE KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING! YOU ARE AWESOME, YOU ARE IMPORTANT, YOU MATTER AND YOU'RE WORTH IT! THAT'S A PROMISE! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN! PLEASE KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING!