The brain is our biggest sexual organ. And cupid arrows strike us in agony, sometimes at things that are just devastating. In human affiars, nothing is as complex as our sexuality. It seems like theres a market for everything on the internet, for good or bad--often mixture. But if the other party is okay with it, or if it is just in your own place, what's the harm? If it's not going to harm you or others, what's the harm? What your describing might be a mixture of fear or humility, tht's a common affair really.