I just want to draw attention to myself by saying or doing controversial and strange things in public, such as kissing someone of the same sex (it's taboo in my country), or cross-dressing. I enjoy the feeling of being admired, stared at, even judged. It gives me a sense of individuality and satisfaction that can't be compared to anything. I want to shock people! I want them to believe I'm kind of living in my own world with my own rules! I want them to believe I'm anything but "normal": whether it be a hooker, a lesbian or a psychopath etc .
I'm not that kind of person who gets negatively influenced by negative opinions of me.
I just want to know if i should be concerned or if it's something teenagers do and it's just a phase.
Thank you in advance!