A couple of things that bother me:
--your boyfriend has never gotten you on the Group A chat. Why ever not?
--after five years he hasn't committed to marriage. Why not, if you are "the one"?
--it sounds like you were doing fine in life until you moved five years ago (
I have always been told that I have a wonderful personality and fun to be around. 
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I wonder if it might be time to reassess your relationship with your boyfriend and/or the area you live in.
Something about the relationship and/or the place isn't allowing the real you to show forth in your true brightness and beauty.
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I used to feel worthy, beautiful, desired, fun and interesting.
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You still are!!
Two questions come to mind:
What would it take for you to return to your former confident, shining self?
How long are you willing to wait in the status quo?