BlueMerle I have no advice for you that hasn't already been given above, but I just want to say that to me you sound TOTALLY awesome!!! When you tell about everything you do it just blows me away. I wish I could do 1/10 of what you do every day but I'm afraid I'm more like your husband. All I can do is admire.

I too believe a good counselor can help you even if your are the only one to go.

My best wishes to you in this matter!!!!