Thank you dear for the update.I am glad you have a good relationship with your father. My mom knew I had better relationship with my dad.She tried very hard to convince him that I was a bad girl and not worthy of his love or attention.Some times he believed it and asked me to oblige my mother more.So I understand when you say your dad makes you to apologize to her for no reason.My childhood situation is so similar to yours.Honey,try some self soothing,take care of your health,eat well and sleep well.You will be needing extra strength. So please take care of your health.Your quality time with your dad,be very secretive about it,if she witnesses she may get jealous and try to spoil it.My mom did.She became extremely jealous if somebody gave me attention.She went to extra ordinary lengths to spoil it for me and made people turn away from me by spreading lies.Life is not easy if such kind of people are our mothers.All the best sweet pea.