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Originally Posted by puzzclar
It's not a punishment but a help. but I see it as a punishment. Its because of a past trauma at another university for my A.S.
Your right I have accomplished a lot. I needed that reminder. Sometimes... a lot... I get caught up into the trap of thinking that I'm not good enough. But I have to be enough. I"m stressed.
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That must be really hard to deal with, regarding the trauma from the other university. I totally get where you're coming from when you say you see it as a punishment. It's very, very hard to get past that, and I have experienced similar things myself where I think, "oh well they're just trying to be nice to me because I have schizoaffective disorder," or, "oh they're just covering their butts because I'm an awful person," etc., etc. I mean I could go on about the thoughts I've had re that, but I also have thought, hey the philosophy department must really hate my guts and stuff like that. I don't know, I have this weird thing where I like school but I'm also very passive-aggressive about it as well.