[QUOTE=Amyjay;6651385]It's so hard. Denial could be said to be built into the very structure of DID, so the fact that you deny and don't believe doesn't mean that it didn't happen. It's annoying as heck, because that doesn't help you know "the truth". You could deny it and it not be real, or you could deny it and that denial be a very real part of true DID.

I know, I know. That doesn't help at all. Trust me - I know![/QUOTE

^^^^^^^Yes! All of this and thatd why I dint know what to do. Do I quit therapy? Keep going to therapy? How do I deal with the fact I can't have absolute proof. I've always been big on that.