thanks for checking in @bpcyclist,

I got past the difficult subject, but it's not all the way gone. I need to be able to talk about anything and be comfortable.

I am facing a partial hospitalization if things don't improve quickly. Or go back to the clubhouse (a mental health outlet that is about the same distance as the place for the partial) I still need to get done my post for the week and finish the quiz. I need brainpower!! I can type but I can't think that well.... weird right?!

Otherwise not really any change. Saw Pdoc today and she made a change that hopefully will help me sleep longer for a while. But I lost confidence in the med. Are meds worth the effort now??

It's like the tootsie roll pop commercial. How many licks does it take to get to the center? 1, 2, 3, crunch, the world may never know. That one. Only it's what does will work best. meanwhile I remain in a state of stress.... and overwhelmed.