I wish I had a good answer for this..

for me: exercise and diet are the lowest thing on my list (I know, bad), however: when I went to the funfair last year, and couldn't fit in the rollercoaster, it motivated me to lose enough wait so the safety bar could go down
the fact that the bar wouldn't go over my chest depressed me and made me feel so ugly and horrible.
how am I doing with that?

not good

because over time I realised, it's just a ****ing roller coaster. if my only goal in life is to go on a roller coaster, then I can find one somewhere that I can actually get in safely.

I guess I'm like you, it's all too much effert, and what's the perfect place anyway. I can't be asked with it. I'm alive, I'm breathing, that's what matters overall