I think I've found a rheumatologist I'm willing to give a try and have asked my PCP to make a referral to him for me.

It will be after the first of the year before they can work me in though.

To go or not to go ... That's the question!

I've been dealing with pain for over 10 years now, so what's three more months I ask myself.

I'm pretty sure that more damage is occurring even as I sit here and type this!

I can feel pain, stiffness and tightness in joints that haven't been involved before.

The time I'm able to stand and walk before the pain kicks up to that go ahead and put me out of my misery level is getting shorter and shorter.

I used to tell myself what a tough nut and cookie I am.

Now it's all I can do to just be present without bursting into tears.

I don't know what to think, feel or believe ... I'm just tired and want to not be in pain anymore.

The ADA thing is slowly plodding along, and ...

The much dreaded colder weather will be here before we know it.

Sometimes I just want off this pfreakin' ride!

Thank you for just letting me give all that jumbled up mess in my head a little bit of air!