Well I tried to act out the fetish on the obsession object I got, and it didn't really work. Very disappointing. It was nowhere near as exciting as I imagined it to be, it was better in the fantasies/daydreams. I was excited about it beforehand, couldn't stop thinking about it. That's why I just went ahead and did it.

I'm just disappointed, frustrated and confused! I don't understand why these things don't live up to my fantasies. I always think it should be better, actually doing it, but it seems the thought of doing it is more arousing.